Olde

Being old isn’t a terrible thing but I guess a person has to get here before they know it. Looking at “old” with fear is kind of dumb. If you get here you will wonder two things: How and Why. How did I get here? Why did I get here? Most of us men know danged well that we shouldn’t have lived past our speeding, drinking, dope smoking and stupidity. I don’t believe in fate but I do believe in reason. One reason which I believe applies to me is that it took me this long to stop being stupid. Nah, I am not going to go into how I was stupid but you know the usual suspects, right?

Seventy-seven is older than I had a right to live to. Still, I am in excellent health, probably due to walking for distance. Vietnam meant I cannot run any longer but rather than feel sorry for myself I learned to walk. My lower back was pretty much lunched in combat. Hurts like hell most days but I pay it no mind. I’ve been through worse and lived to tell about it.

I begin here because I love to work with servers. I told you about why already so I won’t duplicate. What I didn’t want to have happen was senility. I am old enough now to be senile and it ran in my family. It is a sorry thing to witness when a parent doesn’t know who you are. I told myself, no, promised myself that I would do all in my power and God’s grace not to allow myself to waste away. It is called gumption, spine, backbone, courage, you call it what you will but, without it, getting old is for alcoholics or those with no gumption. With that said I also know I can keel over any time now. So what? At least I have made my peace and mended all the wrongs I may have made with those I wronged or even those I may have wronged.

Listen to me go on! I decided to write of all this because I’m seeing a lot of dumb young people who don’t know what they have or listen to all the wrong people, or both. People who use the young for nefarious purposes of their own and convince the young folks that they needed to hate also. Sheep to slaughter is what I call this. History is replete with fools causing war and heartache. It’s too damn bad isn’t it? A person has to think for themselves. That way they have only themselves to answer to when they lose what they should have kept: like their sanity.

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